First World Problem
udbacuddlefish
June 15, 2026
First world problem, I go to the grocery store, buy what I thought was everything on my grocery list, completely forgot the get the one/main thing I went to the store for orz
I forgot strawberries orz
phew, glad to hear! The ones here in Portugal can be very nasty too, some bad memories :(
oh man i'm sorry :( I know there was a big one last year for portugal, it's crazy how fast it can get out of control. the one by me apparently started when they were trying to CLEAR the area to prevent fires too. some of the embers have started other fires elsewhere near me but those have been easier to put out so far
sorry to hear it's been stressful
thanks, sorry it's been improving at least!
This is such a creative way to use this site! Much hugs for those bad days I've missed
thank you so much, appreciate it :D!
Omg , I wanted to buy some new nail polish for some time now and those ones look so cute !! You might have just influenced me XD
yes!! go for it most of mooncat is 20% off right now too until may 31
how was I love Boosters? Was it good? I really want to see it!
i really loved it. it was unpredictable, dealt with serious topics in a fun way. I liked that they address issues that most people take for granted in their day to day
i have the same problem with forgetting what i planned to do haha but mostly its bc i focuse on watching tiktoks...
the best distraction XD
may give love village a chance, thanks!
Fed Captain!
thank you!!
being able to watch lain on the tv must've been so cool.. i'm jealous xp
honestly yes XD it was also one of those shows thay came on super late too so it added to the experience
Love is Blind is Dead
June 14, 2026
I spent most of the day with my husband's cousin watching Love is Blind, we usually just binge seasons at a time but we are so behind that we were watching Season 8 Minneapolis (current season is 10).
With each passing season it's so sad? But in a oh honey.... kind of way.
They also have a hard time getting people to be on these shows that they are literally sliding into people's DMs on instagram to gather a cast cause who wants to be put through this humiliation ritual
The men this season were legit all digusting and immature. I'm blessed that my parents moved to Los Angeles instead of butt fuck nowhere.
One guy, never thought about anything cause it never involved him. Bro didn't know his church's stance on gay marriage. Never thought about black lives matter. Bro you're lucky you even get pussy. You're such a piece of shit. Just because something doesn't concern you doesn't mean you shouldn't educate yourself on that matter.
Like truly, what is it like to be white and live care free. I wish I could be dumb enough to live in ignorance and just be fucking stupid all the fucking time.
Blood Work Time
June 13, 2026
I am sad cause I had to wake up early to go get blood work done. When I got there, there was already 49 people ahead of me orz. It took almost an hour to get it done. They reduced the amount of counters to check in and they were still staggering nurses/techs to help. I had to go to an alternative location cause the hospital I usually frequent doesn't do blood work on weekends and I didn't want to wait until Monday.
Brightside I got the results in the same day. Everything came back good except for my platelet count. It was very high prior years, and steadily going down but I'm slightly still above the range they want me to be in. Gotta keep eating and exercisin right orz
It's so fuckin hard to eat right. I really wanted a muffin but the stupid muffin I wanted alone was almost 400 calories. That's literally like one meal to me orz. Dieting also just make me angry cause I always want more food, and half the time it just feeds like eating disorder enrichment time T_T
THE HOUSE IS EMPTY
June 12, 2026
The "adults" of the house are gone currently, they went to visit relatives in Texas. My brain can finally have time to heal from all the stress of being mostly the only person to handle my husband's abuelita orz
I also got a lot of cleaning done since no one was in my way. I finally had the space to sort everything out and organize. I hate that there's always no room in your room to clean properly :( Got all the bulking stuff that we won't use until the right season comes and moved them to storage.
Dandadan (2024)
Free Flan
June 11, 2026
Sometimes my husband is too exhausted from work to do anything that includes getting/making food, even though that's the thing that he needs the most to feel better. Right now his work days start at 4am, meaning he gets up at 2am to get to work on time. He sometimes can't eat until he gets home around 5pm, he'd go the whole day without food, cause the faster you finish the sooner you get home, if you break for lunch you're working longer. He digs holes all day to put in/get to wiring for traffic lights, he's getting a full body workout for 8 to 12 hours a day.
So because of all that sometimes I just tell him to head straight home, shower and I'll go get food (usually I'll cook but sometimes I don't wanna do dishes lol). Tonight, I went to get El Pollo Loco. Got his main meal but he wanted 2 crispy two tacos as well, they forgot to put it in the bag. I went back, initially he was like no it's not worth it, but my logic brain is like no you wanted additional food, cause youre obviously hungry, you need the tacos. Also they were $7.89 alone, I am either getting my 2 tacos or my almost $8 back LOL They remembered me, remade the tacos so they were fresh and gave me flan fo free. Husband doesn't like flan, so I ate it.
Bocchi the Rock! (2022)
This is what my husband looks like when I finally feed him
Photo Lab Time
June 10, 2026
I took abuelita to Walgreens to print photos for her trip to Texas. She found pictures of her dead husband's family and wanted to gift them copies.
Nothing Happened Today
June 09, 2026
The union contacted husband today for a job lined up so he left right now at 10:30am to go pick up his dispatch slip and get drug tested. Must be a record, he was only unemployed for 3 days LOL
Using up green onions
June 08, 2026
Green Onion Vinegarette from @danielseidman on tiktok
I've been regrowing green onions since my lay off began at the beginning of April, with the current heat wave, they'll been growing back stupid fast. So I was able to get about 2 bunches worth of green onions to make this vinegarette, it indeed is great on anything and everything.
2 chopped bunches of green onions
1/2 cup white wine vinegar
1/2 cup neutral oil; like canola or avocado oil
1/2 cup olive oil
2 tsp kosher salt
1 tsp chili flakes
GF is finally free of the hospital!
June 07, 2026
GF finally got freed from the hospital. The neurologist said that she had two bulges on her spine that were pinching her nerves and that's what was causing her all the pain of not being able ot walk properly :( No surgery can be done. It's a, there's a high chance of her being paralyzed forever :( So, solely she has to go to pain management and get steroid shots for the time being.
I made her Din Tai Fung's Cucumber Salad, one of her faves, she usually orders it or something similar at other restaurants.
Din Tai Fung's Cucumber Salad
1 lb cucumbers cut into half inch pieces
cover them in kosher salt and let sit for 30 mins
in the mean time make the sauce/marinade, in a separate container
1/8 tsp (pinch) mushroom bouillon (MUSHROOM AND COMPANY SEASONING FROM TRADER JOE'S IS NOT THE SAME, THAT SHIT IS LITERALLY RAMEN SEASONING PACKETS, mushroom bouillon is literally $2 and the other stuff will make your cucumbers taste like chicken)
1/2 tbsp salt
1/2 tbsp sugar
1/2 tbsp chili oil
1/2 tbsp sesame oil
1/2 tbsp canola oil
1/2 tbsp olive oil
2 tbsp light soy sauce
2 tbsp rice vinegar
after the 30 mins rinse the cucumbers and pat dry, add it to the sauce and let it soak for 10 mins before eating
Annoyed
June 06, 2026
Had to dropped everything I wanted to do today again. I really wanted an easy day. I felt do fucking disgusted this morning waking up. I just wanted a reset day and to take it slow. But again I had to babysit abuelita. I know it's not her fault. But I really need her LITERALLY BLOOD related family to give more of a shit. She wanted to watch Michael (2026) before it went out of theaters. Totally fine. Totally not fine was that no one wanted to watch it with her T_T She literally cannot be left alone and I dont understand why no one understands that. She is forgetting tasks and subjects in conversations within a minute now, SHE LITERALLY CANNOT BE LEFT ALONE. I fuckin' hate this family.
Michael (2026)
I constantly think about the poor guy that fell in the movie theater cause he was by himself, literally the family's fault imo, the theater workers should have also checked better but still. Stop letting your elderly relatives do shit alone. God damn.
I'm not that into Michael Jackson but it was a great film. They were consistent with edits (I hate it when they drop timeline graphics half way through a film because the plot got too intense (KICK-ASS LOL). The shit that Joseph was saying to Michael throughout the movie really hit home with the verbal abuse my mom put me through, pretty much she use to say the same shit to me. IDK how Michael didn't move out sooner from the family home. He left at 30. I left at 23 or 24.
I'm Done
June 05, 2026
Today was too active of a day for me. I was up for only about 30 minutes, before I get a call from my husband, he got laid off T_T An hour later, my girlfriend calls me, and that's a bad sign cause she's one of those people that ONLY texts, she needed to go to ER cause she couldn't walk T_T and had major back pain. We go to the ER, checked in at 9am and she didn't get admited until 8pm. They keeping her for observation and waiting for specialists like neurologist to be available to consult her results from an MRI. She didn't get to eat until 10pm orz. Gonna go check on her today hopefully, there will be some kind of update.
Disappointed
June 04, 2026
In the span of 48 hrs my bestie that's studying aboard in France right now has almost been trafficked, found out she has herpes then also got diagnosed with diabetes when she was trying to check for any stds T_T She about that hoe life. But why get an IUD then not practice safe sex. FUCK T_T now she has to deal with it for the rest of her life. And will probably never be able to find an actual life partner now. She was already limited with her insane criteria before.
Finally Found the Thing
June 03, 2026
From Daiso
My Dress-Up Darling (2017)
Went to 5 different Daisos looking for this thing to display my Marin Figure. Glad I finally came across one, got the last one. I had her on the ledge of my desk before but slowly I'm cleaning more now so I wanted to put her somewhere else. I love Daiso, it truly has so many goods. Of course after I graduated high school one opened by it LOL
Just a Normal Tuesday
June 02, 2026
Today is a lot cooler than the last few days. We've been melting. I've been trying to run errands only in the early mornings, 5am to 9am before it gets overly crowded and hot from just sheer body heat. I'm lucky my favorite grocery store that I go to opens at 5am. Virtually no one is there to bother me or get in my way. Down side is that that's when the store is still restocking, they don't do overnight shifts. So I usually gotta leave my cart by the end cap and squeeze inbetween. The other downer is if I wake up late I gotta fight mega church goers for parking. There's a mega church across the street from the grocery store, the grocery store is in a huge plaza, the kind that basically looks like an outlet mall. I wish the mega church invested more into more or bigger parking structures, I'm sorry but at least these specifc church goers, they are hella bad drivers. I use to teach behind the wheel driving, so I'm literally licensed to critique this LOL
Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid (2017)
For the first time in like 5 years I think, I also bought new pajamas. I'm losing more weight so that's nice at least. Got 3 sets for $8 each, top and bottoms. I've been also donating my older clothing (like from 15 years ago) or giving them away to people I know. I really don't buy clothing that often as most people do, usually my mom gifts me clothes she'll get on vacation LOL or if she makes a trip to Chinatown/DTLA. I have friends that also work in the fashion industry for Hot Topic/Box Lunch, Sanrio, etc, they gift me clothes all the time. For the most part that know exactly what my taste is so that's super great haha very blessed in that department.
Today was also the first time that I napped for less than an hr. Idk how people can be energized from only napping for like 10 minutes lol My naps usually become sleeps XD
I made migas for breakfast after I got done with all the shopping, errands and chores. I used leftover corn tortillas, leftover chashu, eggs and green onions that I'm regrowing. So far I've saved about $6 from regrowing them by saving the root and putting it in water.
This was so goodddddd
Useless Humans
June 01, 2026
Gonna start just updating a page per month, with the latest day being at the top. Will slowly go back and condense all of May onto one page.
SORRY THIS IS ANOTHER RANT.
Took abuelita to a voting center by the house because she filled out her voting forms wrong, so we had to do it in person. It was a little diffucult cause she's not all here in the mind anymore in my opinion. My mother in law (abuelita's oldest daughter) took her to the doctors (only got one opinion *rolls eyes*), he said that nothing's wrong with her. She's literally forgetting shit in less than a minute now. But w/e ignore my opinion, I've only had to do homecare for 3 grandparents prior to marriage, whom all had things like dementia, alzheimer's etc, I don't know shit. I'm not the one always taking care of abuelita now, cause no one in the family truly gives a shit. It really pisses me off cause no one is taking her health seriously, I feel like I have zero say in anything cause I married into the family. Last time she fell, the people with her DIDN'T FUCKIN DO ANYTHING, her fuck hip cracked. And that shit wasn't attended to for like 4 days. WHY WOULD YOU NOT TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL ASAP. YALL ARE FUCKING STUPID, AND SELFISH. So she became basically walker bound, which she didn't handle well at all. And kept not using it, which kept prolonging the full recovery date. She feels bad asking me for anything or help, but I'm literally unemployed right and able to, and her favors that she wants is like nothing; costco trips, buying stamps, unclogging sink drains. I can totally do all that on my own for her, and if I dont know how to do it, I google it. She always says I can do it whenever, but if I just do it now when she asks then she can move on to w.e else she wants to do that might have been in the way. She won't stress about it. The upsetting part really is that she can't be bothered to remember what kind of asian I am. Idk where the fuck she got that I'm Vietnamese, she knows ZERO Vietnamese people lol and that she's a weirdo Mexican that's republican. So Fox News is always on, she takes their news as facts and she's a trump dick rider and agrees with his racism. She's brown af by the way, so not even like light skinned levels of delusion.
My mother in law lives/works too far and can only come on Friday's (she has a 4 day work week). And when she does come she doesn't actually spend time with her mother T_T like it really makes me hella sad. Abuelita has a movie membership, mother in law grabbed her and left her at a Regal Theater T_T alone. Home girl has fallen 3 times now. Each fall, the stress of it all makes her literally more senile. WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DUMP YOUR MOTHER AT THE THEATER ALONE WHERE SHE MIGHT FALL AGAIN. Make it make sense. The aunt we live with as well (abuelita's other daughter) also is just too busy with work and can't manage her time well enough to do the things her mom asks of her. She'll only call off work or help if it involves her own daughter. She's a whole other hot mess. Aunt's kids, daughter moved out and a son that also lives with us still. The daughter had the audacity to bring up that all the grandchild and their spouses are gonna have to step up in helping out with abuelita since she's getting older. I literally laughed in her face cause I'm the one literally doing everything, also don't say shit like that when YOU MOVED OUT AND CAN'T HELP. She literally only helps her with like ipad stuff at this point due to the amount of time she's able to come back and visit. She is also just not a good adult... she's like 30 now and still needs to be woken up by her bf now... before it was her mother or abuelita... She can't cook. She's too depressed to do things. When she went to college 2 hours away from home, every weekend, her mom and abuelita would drive there to do her laundry and make her food. DO YOU KNOW HOW INSANE THAT IS WHEN YOURE ALSO IN A SORORITY?
The son is literally a hikikomori incel neet, every uneployment slur. Abuelita would ask him to do something and he'd take like a week to do it, not do it at all, he's always in a mood so that's apparently an excuse to not do shit for your grandma???? I don't condone beating your kids, but literally me and everyone else that's been spanked once or what not do not act like this at alllll. It is fucking ridiculous the way they act. BITCH YOURE ON SSRIs, HELLA SUICIDAL AND DEPRESSED? ME TOO. My dad almost ****** my mom, I've been ***** repeated from age 09 to 16, WE ALL GOT SHIT WRONG WITH US. BUT YOU NEED TO GET UP AND DO SHIT. I literally have zero patience and empathy, cause I need people to have real issues now for me to be understanding of why you can't do anything. I know it aint the suffering olympics, but seripusly grow the fuck uppppp.
Honestly I really wished the aunt beat her kids when they were younger cause normal asians and hispanics could never (the siblings are both). The son also just sleeps until like 4pm and does nothing. Bro did so much of nothing that he got a DUI in 2021 and DIDNT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT until like a month ago, only because his license finally got suspended to the point that he basically has to redo his license now. He wouldn't have all that taken care of until JULY, and that's if everythings done recorrectly. SO BRO HAS BEEN DRIVING ILLEGALLY FOR SO LONG. CMON. So because of all that, abuelita has to rely on me to drive her around, which again it's totally fine. But the family gives me NO OPTION and no help, that's the part that's not fine. And it's the thing of I'm gonna do the thing for abuelita, anything, cause have you ever seen your grandparent be so fucking sad that they are miserable for days and won't stop stressing about it? I'm not gonna do that to her cause her actual family is useless.
Husband has an OLDER brother. He's the favorite. He was the first grandchild/kid born. He is the epitome of spoiled rich kid. I hate him because of his actions and behavior my husband suffers. He gets out of responsibilities by always being out of town and ignoring everyone's calls. He is so irresponsible when given his first credit card, yes, GIVEN. Bro racked up 10k in debt for just shoes, yes he's one of those. orz. My in laws are rich enough to take care of it but there's never any reprimand so he just keeps actin up. By him not being there for the family it defaults to my husband to get things done.
Up until last year, my mother didn't know that my husband was the younger brother cause he is always responsible, reliable, thoughtful; all the great adjectives.
My husband helps as much as he can, but he's currently getting up at 3am to 5am everyday (depends on the day's worksite location) works until 3pm to 5pm, goes to class after that until 8:30pm two days of the work week, there's literally no more time in the day for him to help me help his abuelita. By the time he gets home it's 9:30, he'll eat, shower, sleep. If someone has the best excuse to not help it's him.
After reading all that. Why do I put up with all this? 1. it's the right thing to do. You help if someone asks for it and if you're able. 2. we live in her house and pay $500 in rent. Ain't gonna do better than that in Los Angeles.
I am spent